The Unknown

This Thursday at RUF, Reid Dunn spoke since Ted was out of town. In his discussion of Abraham's failed tests, he made a remark that I've been dwelling on since.

"Do not keep facing the devil you know to avoid facing the devil you don't."

After large group this spurred much discussion, and it even awoke me in the middle of the night with this realization: we as people have an underlying fear and sense of anxiousness of the unknown. We are constantly wondering what is next and how we can plan for it, or if you're like me, just secretly hoping that things will all just stay as they are--comfortable and familiar. Lately my friends and I have all been trying to decipher God's plan for our lives upon graduation in the coming months, and regardless of how many pro/con lists we make, this answer will only come through much prayer and at the time in which the Lord chooses to reveal the answer.

However, this statement by Reid adds a new dimension to my analysis on my personal plan. I am very much a person who appreciates consistency and routine and is resistant to most change. This makes me wonder whether my lack of deciding on either continuing with law school or moving to a new city really is just a matter of the former being not only what I know, but a familiar plan and idea versus the latter which is uncharted territory in not being in an academic setting and forcing independence. So here I shall sit, on this eve of an ending, and patiently await the answer of where to go next and pray that me clinging to familiarity will not be a factor.

Matt Wertz

I have never written a blog before, and never thought I would. But lately I have discovered that I really like other people's takes on life. So, I will be using this for writing down quotes, song lyrics, or random happenings of the day that I really like or that cause me to pause and reflect.

For some reason I cannot quit listening to Matt Wertz. "Counting to 100" and "That for You" have been two that are constantly on repeat in my car, but today I ventured to "All I Know." There is one line in particular that makes my heart swell and mind fixate on:

"I don't know how You swallow all I am, when I can't stand my taste."

To me, that has summed up my faith as of late. I keep making the same stupid mistakes or trusting in my plan versus the Lord's for me. This line just says it all--regardless of how many times we find ourselves messing up, God loves us. He takes us in completely when we don't even like ourselves. Nothing is more encouraging than that!